Jaime Deubner’s Testimony of God’s Saving Grace
Good Morning everyone, and Happy Resurrection Sunday! For those of you that don’t know me, my name is Jaime Deubner. First, I want to tell you about who I was before I became saved. I grew up, being dragged to church every Sunday. My friends were there, and I never really paid any attention to what was said, but I knew about Jesus and that he died on the cross to save the world from sin and I knew a few Bible stories. In children’s church we were told to draw a picture of where we were when we “asked Jesus into our hearts” so I drew a picture of me in the bath, and said that that’s where I was when I prayed and asked Jesus to come into my heart. I don’t know if that was true or not, but I thought that I was a Christian. Then, when I was sixteen my mom told me that I could choose if I wanted to continue going with her to church, but I chose to sleep on Sunday instead. All of the adults always thought that I was such a nice girl, the “good girl” out of my two sisters and me. But I really wasn’t. I was mean, and bitter, and selfish. I also got into trouble – I just hid it better. I stayed at friends’ houses a lot because my parents were divorced and my mom worked. I was my own god, I followed my own rules and did whatever I wanted and I didn’t care who I emotionally hurt in the process.
My sister Criss had found this church and learned a lot about God and the Bible, and she started to share it with me. After she became saved, she shared with me the changes that occurred in her life. It took awhile, but I decided to start attending church services occasionally. On Sunday, May 25, 2008, I heard Andy Csilig’s sermon on The Parable of the Sower. It really got me thinking about my “profession of being a Christian.” By the end of the sermon, I was feeling really convicted about the way I had lived my life up to that point, and that just because I attended church growing up, DID NOT mean that I was going to heaven. God brought me to realize that I was not a “good person” like I had thought, but that I am a terrible, horrible, disgusting sinner just like everyone else. But He didn’t leave me there, He sent His only son Jesus, to pay for my sins on the cross. Jesus bore the cost of my sin against God in His blood, so that I could be saved. We have an amazing, gracious, loving, and forgiving God! I immediately felt free – like a weight had been lifted. I was no longer bogged down by my sin – I became a child of God! It seemed like I was looking at life through new eyes, even the colors of car paint seemed beautiful to me. I saw the world as God’s amazing creation!
After this I then had a strong desire to know God’s word, and I wanted to follow His word on how He wanted me to live. I started attending church regularly, and actually looked forward to Sundays. I also started attending a womens’ Bible study group. Through the grace of God I know where I am going when I die. I no longer have to be afraid of what will happen to me or to this world. I know that I will be in heaven. Since being saved, my whole attitude is different. I now have a love for God and other people, not just myself. I still have my struggles, but I know where I can find my answers.
I would like to read Colossians 3:1-10, partly because verse 8 is the first scripture that I memorized. “Therefore if you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is our life, is revealed, then you also will be revealed with Him in glory. Therefore consider the members of your earthly body as dead to immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and greed, which amounts to idolatry. For it is because of these things that the wrath of God will come upon the sons of disobedience, and in them you also once walked, when you were living in them. But now you also, put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.” Do not lie to one another, since you laid aside the old self with its evil practices, and have put on the new self who is being renewed to a true knowledge according to the image of the One who created Him” Colossians 3:1-10
If any of you are unsure of where you are going when you die, please talk to Pastor Harris or one of the members of the church like I did, so they can share with you the truth that I now know. Thank you.